I ended my last post asking you to imagine how your life would look in one year if you started to make decisions based on what would make you happy (making sure that they, of course, aligned with your priorities). If you took me seriously and really imagined what it would look like if EVERY action and decision you made was to move you one step closer to a happier life… It might’ve given you goosebumps. Which is a good thing…
I started Lara Casey’s book Make It Happen some time last year and never got past the first few chapters. It wasn’t the right “time”. After what has gone on these past few months, I know if I had finished that book the first time around Lara’s message wouldn’t have resonated with me as much as it did when I read it the second time around over the holidays. A few months ago I made the scary decision to choose my family over my job (reading that it sounds ridiculous that anything should come before your family yet how many of us get judged for having to do just that?).
I called my Nana crying because I felt like I was such a failure. That I couldn’t make the right decisions and find a good job. An honest and hardworking person like me (and imagine how many others out there) couldn’t find a decent paying job with stable hours… But she reminded me that I needed to be strong for our family. Thomas is the strength and foundation but I keep us operating and plan and keep track of EVERYTHING. I can’t afford to crack under the pressure.
Amazing things happen when you finally surrender to what is. I had to be honest with myself, the hours and what was expected of me at the pub just wasn’t going to work for our lifestyle. I had so much more to offer if I could only find the stability and reassurance I needed that my job would take care of my family.
With a new fire lit under me I scoured the Internet for a job. We have heard nothing but amazing things about working for Fred Meyers (a grocery store in our area that’s a part of the Kroger chain) and they had an opening for a deli clerk position. I was totally intrigued. I had faith that if it was meant to be it would be.
As an early Christmas present, I landed the job. And I honestly love it. It’s everything I love about the restaurant industry (customer service, food, teamwork, and daily challenges) with the stability a server position lacked (pay and hours to name a few).
I knew I would need to find a way to balance all these priorities in my life (faith, Thomas, family life, work, and mommy time which includes working out and creative time) so I began to put purpose behind as many of my actions as I could. I knew the first thing to suffer would be my workouts… And they have. But I try to put purpose behind everything I do at work. I try to alternate lifting the heavy chubs of meats and cheeses between my right and left arms which has helped to keep my pesky lil’ wings under control (you know what I mean right?! Those darn arm flaps that are so hard to get rid of!)! Making sure I put purpose behind everything I do, whether it’s at work or at home, puts me in the best position to make the right choices that move me towards a happier life.
But life, of course, always has its curveballs. Thomas’ retail job started drastically cutting his hours and as our bookkeeper fear started to creep back into my mind. If you know Thomas… He puts a lot of passion and purpose into each one of the relationships he builds. And one of those relationships saved us just in the knick of time. But with sudden blessings comes sudden changes. This week my emotions have been on a wild rollercoaster as we remain grateful for all these opportunities and blessings while trying to stay on top of finding someone to watch our kids along with trying to get our new schedules to jive. Through the craziness we’re trying to stay focused on the lessons we’ve learned these past few months… Because they’ve really gotten us through some hard times.
God has shown us that if we keep pushing and putting purpose behind all our efforts the outcome always blows our mind. In my last post I shared it was a rough day because I was letting fear and worry take over my mind. I honestly don’t have room or time for that in my life so from here on out… This is my mantra:
Surrender to what is.
Have faith in what will be.
Put purpose in everything You do.
These three things (plus love & honesty <3) have never failed us… And are words I choose to live by.
I’ve been putting inspirational quotes as my phone’s home screen to keep me focused and I’ve made this mantra is my current one. Feel free to save it!